After what I have recently posted I realized that I live too much in regret, especially when it comes to relationships. I regret trying and forgiving when I should stand strong. I regret not trying harder when I could have. I can't change what I did and didn't do I can only better myself. Whether I better myself for the person I am hoping for or for someone I have not even met yet, at least I know what I need to work on.
Today I messaged him asking him if he was being honest about us trying again in the future, and he gave me a really vague answer "I'm doing me, you do you and fix your stuff". So either he is just stringing me along in case his relationship that he is in now doesn't work, or he is being genuine. I just wish I knew because I know that I don't deserve to be an after thought but at the same time I want to be optimistic. I don't want to be naive and be played but I think that if we can work out our differences we hold a lot of potential. I wish I had some friends to talk about this too but they have heard our dramas way too many times, and a lot of the time I feel like some of them don't actually care about my well being. Advice would be great, but I know that I can't rely on other people.
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